January 19, 2012

Holiday Blues

Well here it is the 19th of the month and I really am suffering from after holiday blues. I think it is because I haven't seen any of my children or grandchildren since I got back in July.

Life is so fleeting I wonder why people aren't more forthcoming when you need to hear from them. I am trying my best to keep my chin up, be strong, and optimistic. Sometimes it is hard to tell just where you are at with things from one day until the next.

The weather outside certainly doesn't make life wonderful. Arthritis doesn't fair so well in cold or inclement weather. I try to be optimistic, fill my days with writing, see my friends and look after Dylan but it often isn't enough. I am trying to make make some money so that I can afford little luxuries. But they are hollow compared to the emotional ties that are missing in my life.

Perhaps the Universe, in its own perverse way is handing me a sentence of some kind. I don't really know; but if it is it seems to be doing the trick as far as making me sad, hurt, and confused.

However; like my Mother I do believe that every cloud has a silver lining and that if you get lemons you should make lemonade so I will continue to work at being optimistic and positive about life.

January 2, 2012

The Holiday Season of 2010/2011.

Well I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas and enjoyed New Years Eve and Day as well! I decided this year not to make any resolutions but to give myself a break and accomplish what I could naturally do without the stress of a list. Any time I have written a list of resolutions I have been really disappointed with myself. If I just stick to my habit of setting small goals every week then perhaps at the end of the year I will have accomplished some really neat larger goals.

I had a really quiet Christmas and New Years this year and I really did enjoy myself. We had a traditional turkey dinner for Christmas and a quiche at New Years. I think we will have the ham we thought we would have on New Years Day later in the week. In any case, we certainly did not starve. My girlfriend and housemate and I ate well over the holidays.

Just Too Much Christmas And New Years This Year!

This past Christmas seems to be to have been a lot less commercial for me as well. That really made it seem more like the ones in my childhood. Our Christmas tree was adorned with a lot of home crafted ornaments and we tried to just take each thing as it came instead of planning every second out. I am so glad it was so quiet and laid back. It gave me a chance to meditate on what Christmas is all about and to enjoy it all the more.